It is well with my soul

Received the promotion list in my inbox.

No, I don’t expect to be promoted, not after only working for half a year and then missing in action for attending a leadership course and getting the baby out for the other six months.

Yes, I feel emotional about it. Bad thoughts came to my mind. If only I have not gone to accompany the hubs for his studies. If only I have not gotten myself pregnant.

Thankfully, today’s bible study message came to me instantly – Accomplishments apart from Christ have no eternal value.

Teaching is a calling, I’m pretty sure but for now, I have a higher calling – motherhood.

Once I have embarked on this journey, there will be no turning back.

So yes, I’m always in a mess, sweaty and unglam, all thanks to the sweltering heat and Faith’s drooling. But no thanks to comments on how I should do this and that or how I should not do certain stuff in bringing up Faith. They are uncalled for.

20130325-183013.jpgSo no, I’m not jealous. In fact, I’m happy for those who are promoted. They deserve the reward for working their arse for the students. But how I wish, yes, how I wish that we do not have this promotion thing and that all of us work because we love what we are doing?

So yes, my heart was unsettled for a moment, to be honest but now, I could safely say, “It is well with my soul.”

How could you not when you have a koala bear clinging on to you and a husband who is always there for you?

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