Received the promotion list in my inbox.
No, I don’t expect to be promoted, not after only working for half a year and then missing in action for attending a leadership course and getting the baby out for the other six months.
Yes, I feel emotional about it. Bad thoughts came to my mind. If only I have not gone to accompany the hubs for his studies. If only I have not gotten myself pregnant.
Thankfully, today’s bible study message came to me instantly – Accomplishments apart from Christ have no eternal value.
Teaching is a calling, I’m pretty sure but for now, I have a higher calling – motherhood.
Once I have embarked on this journey, there will be no turning back.
So yes, I’m always in a mess, sweaty and unglam, all thanks to the sweltering heat and Faith’s drooling. But no thanks to comments on how I should do this and that or how I should not do certain stuff in bringing up Faith. They are uncalled for.
So no, I’m not jealous. In fact, I’m happy for those who are promoted. They deserve the reward for working their arse for the students. But how I wish, yes, how I wish that we do not have this promotion thing and that all of us work because we love what we are doing?
So yes, my heart was unsettled for a moment, to be honest but now, I could safely say, “It is well with my soul.”
How could you not when you have a koala bear clinging on to you and a husband who is always there for you?